A load off my chest

Dear Friend turned acquaintance,

I know you won't be offended by the salutation. In fact, silently, I know you're glad that I feel the same way because now its easier for you and now we both can behave accordingly in a chance meeting.
Our circumstantial meeting was quite unnecessary. I never wanted to be in your life and vice versa. But as fate and our mutual friend would have it, we did meet and my erstwhile charm did rub off on you and well it was nice knowing you and in the short while you did know me before the unfortunate series of events, I hope you did as well.

Ours started off like any fast friendship did, but it wasn't meant to be, given how uncomfortably instant everything was.
My behavior during those five days didn't help make anything better. I know this for a fact. I did get to know what everyone was saying behind my back and well, all I have to say is that those days were tough for me and I deserved all the bad mouthing. Those five days were one of the most worst days of my life so far. We never talked much after that incident. Just friendly acknowledgements. Honestly, I'm glad. I was a molten mess. My head was fucked beyond recognition. I worked, and still am working on making a new man of myself. I'm sorry for that week. I know it was already shitty without me adding to it.

Coming to the recent times, our last meeting wasn't the best either. I was still recovering from the past and new my job wasn't helping my situation either. By the time I was back home, I knew that I'd made a mistake. I was in dearth of company and meeting up with all you guys, I leaned a little too hard on you. A little too clingy for anyone. I knew it the moment you'd dropped us off. I knew you'd say no to hanging out the next day, even though our mutual best friend was only in town for a few days and you were leaving the next day.
The point of all this is, that I want to apologize over and over again. I felt terrible for clinging that way, ruining five potentially heavenly days and even having been dragged into your life. I don't blame anyone but myself.
I would say another chance meeting would be nice, just so I can show you that I am different now, because that incident in October was the final straw.

It was genuinely nice knowing you, regardless of how short the time period was. And I still remember the ham incident. That evening was fun. All the days leading up to that evening and night were amazing. Thank you for the memories. I'll make sure you never have to bear with having me around just because J crashes at my place when in town, and even though you never complained about that I feel it my responsibility to do so.

I guess I'll see you around,

All the very best in life,

P